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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

19) Movie Lot waves

2:30am 8/19/07

This was written a few hours after waking, as I can still remember major points. I wish I had recorded it! I remember thinking at the time that it wasn’t that ‘significant’ a dream but again, in full waking state, I realize it just may have been!

Was in a ‘movie lot’ of sorts, gathering people to come watch ‘the show’ that was going to start. I knew all about what was going to happen and wanted others to watch the event. We lined up along a wall on one side of the lot, and then the ‘show’ started. It was really nothing more than a wall of water that exploded out of the center hill area and swirled all over, filling the entire lot with waves of wild water. To me it felt refreshing and exhilarating!

It got to the point where it was going to start filling up the area where we were sitting, but I knew that it would only get to be about ankle level, so I already had my shoes off so I could enjoy putting my bare feet in the water. The others sitting with me were frightened and worried that the water was going to be washing over and engulfing us. I knew that wasn’t going to happen, so I just said, ‘stay, wait and see because we are safe’.

At one point I stood and looked over to another ‘movie lot’ across the way and saw more activity and water movement, knowing that this was going to be ‘part 2’ of the movie and that others were there now going through it, so I had to wait for our turn. I was excited for some reason, knowing that ‘part 2’ was going to be even more ‘fun’ than this part one I was at!

Sunday, August 26, 2007

18) Finally! OOB in the near-physical again

5:44 am August 26, 2007

It's been a long few weeks with only intermittent, yet still symbolic, dreams occurring. I have not been sharing them here as I think they would probably be not as interesting to others who would not be able to relate to them as I do.

However, I will share another definite out-of-body experience, even though it is nothing as exciting as some of the ones here on the blog.

My first recollection that I was dreaming involved a short dream sequence that had my daughter coming upstairs to see me while I was 'sleeping'. I remember her asking me for permission to let her go to the SuperBowl, which immediately made me realize, 'hey, this is not right.....she is not home tonight, and she would never want to go there....', which was my key that I was now 'dreaming'.

Becoming aware I was in this 'altered' state (mind awake/body asleep), I then tried to see if I could move my astral arms and legs. It took a few minutes of wriggling around, but I soon was able to feel them move, so I concentrated on "out of body now!" while attempting to roll out. On the second try, I found myself standing at the side of the bed, feeling a bit wobbly, in complete darkness, and with a lot of 'heaviness' surrounding me.

Surprisingly, I could feel my pet Labrador's head pressed against my right leg (as he usually does when he wants my attention) and wondered how he could really be there. I didn't take the time to focus on his being there, since I was concentrating on moving away from my body.

I was thrilled to realize I was 'out', and remembered to say 'clarity now!' to get my vision improved. To get moving, I said 'to the door!' and glided to the door and out into the hallway. As usual, the farther I got away from my body, the less 'pull' and 'heaviness' I felt, and was able to maneuver better.

I went down the stairs to the living room, and stopped there wondering, 'what am I going to do now?' I realized I could still feel my pet's head pressed against my leg, so I took a second to scratch his head and thank him for being with me. Again, I didn't spend too much time wondering why he was there because I felt it would 'awaken' me too much.

It's been a long time since I was able to get into the near-physical with familiar surroundings, so I was not really prepared as I should have been with a planned objective for travel.

Looking out the window on my left, I said 'to the outdoors!' and then felt myself pass through the wall into the backyard. Again, I realized my vision was not as clear as I wished, so I again said, 'clarity now!', with little effect. I was able to remember then to state, "I see clearly now!" which immediately cleared my vision. Interesting to note, once I was outside, I could no longer feel my dog at my side.

I could see the trees and houses next door, and then turned to look up into the nearest tree. I thought I'd like to feel the leaves and see from the tree top so I glided up gently, enjoying the freedom. I felt the unusual texture of the leaves, and was able to see my backyard in a full-view panorama from the treetop.

It was so exhilarating and exciting for me to be out again! Unfortunately, something caused me to feel that 'return to body' sensation and I awoke in bed immediately.

I know this is really a 'nothing' experience in terms of doing something constructive, but it did give me the assurance that I have not lost my ability to OOB and will still be able to work on achieving more in the future.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

17) Robot Factory

Since it's been a bit of a 'dry' spell for me at this time, and I had the time to review past experiences, I thought I'd share another experience from a few months ago that had the same familiar male 'guide' with me whom I still have yet to learn his name! As always, he is just behind me and talking to me, making me feel so comfortable, happy, and lighthearted!

4/22/07 5am

I am lying in bed, aware of an opening in my eyes, like a little hole I could see out of, and then it became like I was looking through a ‘windshield of a car’ again. The opening would close, then open slightly, and close again and I would work on trying to pry it open fully to ‘full screen’, which eventually it did.

As it opened I was looking at what appeared to be the side of a road as I am passing by, with little yellow flowers along an embankment of sorts, which allowed me to become more aware that I was ‘going out’. Upon this realization, I opened wide to a full countryside area and I said, “Take me to where I need to go to learn”.

Immediately I felt drawn backward through a black tube-like tunnel, very quickly, where all was quiet for what felt like a long time. (Was long enough that I was able to remember thinking, ‘wow, this is a long time in this tunnel!’ lol)

As I became aware of my surroundings, I felt I was high up in the air and someone was with me. It appeared to be a sort of ‘robot/mannequin’ factory where there were these lifelike mannequins or robots lined up on a hook on a cable high in the air. They were being transported somewhere, and I could feel something ‘hook’ me as I held onto one of the mannequins.

I am riding this cable down an assembly line and ride along as it curves to the left. I get off and again fully aware that someone was with me. Now I had to go into the building carrying this robot/mannequin with me. As I move toward the building, I realize this male figure is with me, talking about ‘us’ and ‘them’, telling me something I can’t fully recall. I remember asking him twice “Us?” wondering who he meant in talking about ‘us’. He tried to explain but I couldn’t figure out who the ‘us’ was, knowing ‘them’ was the people who made the mannequins.

He was behind me, and I started to go down a flight of stairs, awkwardly and with difficulty, carrying this robot. Just before I started to down the steps, I said, ‘Wait! I want to know who you are, I want to see you!’. I turned around to face him, saw a young, clean cut male with short dark hair, and very handsome, smiling at me. Again he started telling me about ‘us’ and ‘them’ as he puts his hand on me to help me down the stairs. I feel I want to get even closer to him, so I put my arm around his back for more support.

As I start down the stairs, another female ‘worker’ quickly cuts ahead of me and I start bumping into her, apologizing, because I’m just so clumsy with this robot I’m carrying.

Now, I’m on the stairs and make it down into a hallway of sorts, only to find my male ‘guide’ already there ahead of me! I remember saying to him, “oh, that was a cute trick!”

Now I heard someone call to me from down the hallway, ‘hey, you’ve got to come see this!’ and I go to a room on my left and look into it. It’s a sort of office that is very cluttered, and piled with papers and assorted books. I felt I wasn’t understanding why I was there and what I was to be learning, so I said I’m going to look around so I can try to figure out why I’m here.

I immediately got that ‘return’ feeling and woke up back in bed, with the feeling that I perhaps should not have questioned what was going on, but should have just ‘gone with the flow’ and I would have been able to continue further.

I wrote in my journal that I felt it was due to my attempting to take ‘control’ of the dream process that I was made to return. Perhaps this control issue is something I need to learn to ‘let go of’ was the comment I made when I wrote this in my journal.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

16) Astral Vision

August 12, 2007 4:30 am

I use the term "astral vision" or "higher vision" to describe the vision we see with when we see things that "normally" would not be seen (through lower consciousness vision) - seeing "through the veil," if you will. You can be OB or simply have the OB mental state, if you will, when you use astral vision....Many times, astral vision kicks in during a pre-separation but heightened state. It can be part of the pre-(conscious) OBE lead-up, or no OBE may follow. So, one need not be asleep, dreaming or in an actual OBE to have this expanded visual experience.

This morning, I was able to 'see' scenes of places, feeling like I'm traveling there, but being very much aware that I am looking through my eyes in bed. It's very hard to describe the feeling, but I know that I was watching and participating in these scenes. They did not feel to be very 'symbolic' and 'deep', but just areas I was visiting.

The first I remember was 'pulling up' next to a large ship in the ocean, watching it from the side as it moved through the waves. It was painted blue and red, with some white areas. I could even 'see' the people on the bridge as they were piloting the ship.

While I am becoming aware I am doing this, it appears I am watching as if through a car window, with some distortion. As the scene started to fade, I said 'clarity now' hoping to clear it up, but the scene then changed to a large area of land, high above the ocean, formed in 'blocks' that may have had a track running along the top of it.

Again the scene shifts, and now I am in a city, and zooming along the streets watching the people and buildings. I get the feeling of a European city (I have never been to Europe) for some reason, and can even read the names of some of the stores. The only one I can recall had a T & A in the name and I felt it was a jewelry store of some sort.

The most interesting part was the 'cut-outs' of people that were placed along one section of sidewalk. The pictures were most interesting, with lifelike pictures of various people in different poses. At one point, a man and a woman asked me if I wanted to 'see' myself in one of them, and I felt they were going to pull a prank on me and make the picture something funny, so I really didnt' going along with their suggestion.

The last thing I remember is sitting in a fountain area, watching a young boy, whom I felt I was caring for. He was rather reluctant to take his nap, but with some persuasion, I convinced him to 'just rest his eyes' and he fell asleep.

Really, I don't feel there was much significance to this experience, but I thought I'd share it since I'm not sure really what this was, except that it was so real and exciting to do.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

15) Trouble at School

July 13, 2007 7am

I was at a school but in the back section (had a faculty entrance feeling) and then proceeded to walk around to the front sidewalk. I knew I was going on a trip with a class somewhere.

While on the sidewalk, I heard a commotion and then saw a bomb(!) drop to the sidewalk in front of me! I saw two relatives just in front of me closer to dropped bomb. The bomb did not explode, but just landed there point down, balanced on end on sidewalk. I felt this was an ‘ongoing’ event (bombing) but that we were lucky this time as it did not explode.

A few minutes later, I watched as a green flag antennae shot up from the back of the bomb (which was still pointing down on sidewalk) and then realized “OH NO! it’s going to explode!”, and it did! (I felt it was ‘trick bomb’ with a delayed detonation that worked best with complacent attitudes)

I knew that people were hurt, and a woman off to my left was very badly hurt. I didn’t think I was too bad, but was grazed in the face because I could barely see out of my right eye and blood was dripping down. (Funny, though, I felt this was a ‘good’ thing somehow.)

Now I remember being told there is going to be no class trip now, so the class was going to watch a movie instead. I asked the name of the movie (thinking I’d like to see it too), but when I heard the name, knew I saw it already and ‘moved on’.

Now found myself in a room talking with a couple about their new baby, and felt it was related to me somehow. I was told the baby's name was ‘Alora’ or ‘Ali’ or something like that. I asked how they chose that name and they said it was short (nickname) for ‘Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious’ (a fictional long word from the Mary Poppins movie). I became upset because I knew this child would have a very difficult time in kindergarten when they start school because they always make you write out your legal name, not a nickname.

This was not recorded in my usual fashion so many details may be left out, but since the basic story stayed with me even after a few hours of being awake, I thought I’d write down what I can remember.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

14) Intent is Everything

I just wanted to post a note here letting everyone know that since I have been on vacation for the past 3 weeks, there has been little posting done. I still have had dream experiences and have them recorded, but due to time constraints, I haven't been able to get them written out and evaluated.

I do want to point out it IS true that placing intent and expecting results will give you the best experiences. Over the past three weeks, I slowed down on the number of attempts and 'working' sessions due to the vacation. I still have had dreams and experiences, but they in no way compare to the sometimes 'high-level' ones that I have when I expect and work toward them. I feel the dreams I have had still have very symbolic events, but the actual lucid-type experiences were not there.

Now that things are getting back to 'normal', I will hopefully be able to post more here. I did want to make sure everyone knew that focusing intent and fully expecting results WILL give you the best chances for any lucid dream experiences and OOBEs.

Saturday, July 7, 2007

13) One Sentence Description

7:52am 7/04/07

I woke with the definite feeling I had just done some intensive ‘studying’ (for lack of a better word) somewhere, and the only recall I had was this task I was given at the end. The task was to find a sentence in this book that best described me, the ‘whole me’. (Again, this may be a reference to my beginning blog entry that says I’m on “Journey One – getting to know yourself”)

I was sent to a ‘waiting room’ to look up in a book (one I knew very well) to find a single sentence that I felt would describe who I am. I knew where I wanted to look but it was taking me a long time to find it. I knew the exact sentence I wanted, and it was in this book in a chapter that dealt with 18th century or 1700’s. The book covered all kinds of information and had many chapters to go through. I felt had read this book before, and it covered all aspects of myself, from being a mom, to cooking and recipes. I was looking at the titles of the chapters on top, specifically looking for this 18th century reference. Any other sentence I found just wouldn’t do a good enough job to fully describe what I felt was ‘me’.

My counselor there gave me this task was there off to my left, doing other things while I’m searching the book in this waiting room full of other people. My friend Susan was there talking to people just like a counselor would, participating in the conversation, and trying to help the others with their issues. (Something she does in real life too)

I felt I was holding everything up, causing a delay, in trying to find this sentence. I got the feeling I was there with someone else and I knew I could find a sentence that described that person, but I just couldn’t find one to fully describe me.

I did wake with a 'knowing' that perhaps I am NOT able to be described by just one sentence, but am a myriad of all that I have ever been! (which I’m sure may mean my many past lives).

12) Other Beings and People

5:51am 7/01/07

I was coming down a familiar stretch of highway by our local high school with the feeling I had somehow received ‘superpowers’, now being able to move very fast! As I passed by the school entrances, I saw a group of familiar people standing, watching my arrival, near the first school entrance. I believe I had some interaction here with these individuals, especially one I felt very close to, but have no recall as to what exactly took place.

At the second school entrance, just a little further down, I saw 3-4 ‘otherworldly beings’ standing at the entrance. They were completely different shapes (robotic-like? no obvious humanoid shape), and a variety of colors, with a glowing soft light green area on one. I remember having fun, skidding into their area (because I was traveling SO fast!) to stop in front of them.

The one said ‘whoa!’ like he was startled due to my quick appearance and he put his hand out toward my ‘energy center’ to see who I was. He pulled back quickly (as if he touched something hot) saying “Who are you? You’re not from here!” I felt I was not expected at this place, as they were standing in such a way to block this entrance.

Feeling not very welcome, I continued on down the road, but with the knowing that the one familiar male presence that I had passed on the first entrance was watching. There was such a strong connection to him as he watched me leave, so I wanted to ‘show off a little’ by doing skating-like maneuvers. I felt him say to me, “Come on, show me ‘Mach-5 speed!” so I then take off knowing he was watching, yet wishing I could have stayed with him!

I next found myself in a hallway, knowing I had to get to this one class. I felt I was running late but it was an ‘excused lateness’ as they knew I was doing something important before arriving.

The hallway area had a closed door at the end and just as I got to the door, I heard someone on other side (of the door) say “Come on, open the door! I have to get in and get to class!” So as the door opened for this other person, I took the opportunity and went on in.

I walked into my classroom on the right, where I saw an older woman teaching. There were others all around working on their projects. I watch as an older man came into the classroom ahead of me, joking around saying he was dropping off mail for the teacher from (a local community college here). I knew enough to realize this class was definitely not from this college, (the letter carried the feeling it was something going on union-wise or politically wise), and I saw that the teacher was not at all interested in opening up this letter.

The teacher did see me come in right behind him, saying, “oh good! I’m glad you could make it!” and began working on my project. I had the feeling I had just done something or went somewhere prior to arriving that we took pictures of and she asked if I had seen the pictures yet. It felt like it was a ‘graduation’ of sorts that occurred prior, and I said “no, I haven’t seen anything yet.”

I was handed this whole stack of photos, saved in envelopes. I spread them on the table, carefully taking out the first set of photos. It was a picture of two boys, and the teacher said ‘there, that’s him, with his older brother’, with the feeling it was his graduation, someone I knew well. The next few pictures were various young kids with one specific picture suddenly showing me two of my own children as young boys, along with these other two boys. The picture was taken many years ago in a ‘workshop’ type setting (which felt familiar, but I have no clear recall of this place). I knew this was someone they grew up with, so I said “I’m so glad you have pictures of my boys with them” and the teacher said, “well of course I would, that was a very important time because he had just lost his other friends and was so happy to made new friends.” Now I felt she was the mother of the new ‘graduate’ and was explaining to me how my boys helped her son so much.

The next picture I picked up was actually a picture frame with a video playing in it. In this video was a firefighter, a man who had a heavy black mustache and heavy black coarse hair., He spoke loudly and arrogantly, with a touch of obscene words, much like a ‘macho’ full of ego firefighter might do. He turned to show the back of his black turnout coat with NYFD (?) logo, and I saw his shoulders covered with dirt and dust. I cannot recall any of the words he spoke, only his demeanor and personality.

I related the scene to NY on 9/11/01, but don’t know if it was actually then or just my perception. I also knew this was someone I had previously been involved with romantically because I missed him, feeling I hadn’t seen him in so long and was so happy to see him again! But, this feeling was tempered with the fact that I knew he was married, and I was watching what was like a review of his life. The video went back to his younger days and then faded into a picture of his wife as a younger girl. She looked Italian, with an olive complexion, a thin young girl who then transformed into an older woman with long black hair, parted in the center. The last picture was of the both of them as young couple that then changed into them in their older years. I felt some ‘guilt’ that I could have been ‘involved’ with him romantically despite the fact he was already married.

I am not sure what all this means, but I woke up knowing that perhaps this was a part of another life that I no longer needed to feel ‘guilty’ about. There is so much going on in this dream/OBE recall that I am having a difficult time deciphering all the hidden meanings!

Saturday, June 30, 2007

11) Lucid Dream Recall - Ice Tsunami

6/24/07 2:31 am Ice Tsunami

I have been attempting to use the recommendation of trying to 'get back into the dream-consciousness state of mind' to enhance recall of a lucid dream.

I find my recall is usually done in a backward fashion, with only a few memories of the ending remembered at first. Once I settle into the altered state of intending to recall more details, I can usually start pulling out memories of a previous event, which will then lead to more memories of an even earlier event.

This was how I was able to recall this dream, as I awoke with only the memory of cold water and a huge wave!

The feeling I awoke with was that I was doing something else even prior to this recalled dream sequence, but am unable to remember any earlier events. So, put back in chronological order, the dream goes as such:

My earliest recall starts with the feeling of floating in a body of water, holding onto an older man, trying to help him somehow. We were both floating in a pond or lake that led into a river. As we floated around a curve to the left riding the current, he pointed off to the right where a distance away I could see a little square, boat (?) cushion, floating on the water. He indicated to me that "that’s where the ‘event’ happened." (The feeling I had was that there was a loss of life there).

We are now floating in the faster river portion around an island with a building on it (my feeling was it was a barn-type building). We are being carried along by the current, and my impression was that the water was now dangerous, in the sense that it was very, very, very cold with ice buildup on the edges. The ice extended into the river and under the water on both sides. We were floating into this one open channel, surrounded by ice, and I was relieved to see that we were near a point where we’d be able to climb onto the ice shelf to get out of the river .

All of a sudden, a small piece of the ice shelf breaks off, creating a little wave, and I can feel the up and down movement in the water. I said, “oh great, this isn’t a good thing!” and we continued to drift further, knowing I had to get out of this water because it was just too cold to stay in for long.

I felt it was imperative to get this guy out of here now, when suddenly a huge piece of the ice shelf breaks off underwater below our feet! I remember saying “Oh, no! This is not good!” as it created a huge tsunami-like effect wave that lifted us up very, very high! I said to the man, “Hang on! We are going to take a little ride here!”

We went up so high I remember thinking, “Oh my gosh, this is so high that I know we are going to get hurt when we are dropped down from this height!" (Again, this was a ‘concern for my safety’ trigger that I feel I was supposed to remember I was lucid dreaming at that point!)

Knowing we are going to be slammed into the earth from this height, I was very concerned but also immediately had the knowing that “no, I can control this!” I closed my eyes and repeated to myself over and over, ‘soft and gentle landing’, with full confidence that I could change this scene’s ending. Sure enough, we were ‘softly and gently’ laid upon on the ground and that’s where I woke up in my bed.

I believe I must have fallen right asleep after this, without thinking to record it. Upon awakening at 7am, remembering those few details, I tried the recall method and this is what I got!

Saturday, June 23, 2007

10) Tornado Dream

I was going to use this blog only for my OOBEs in an attempt to keep log of my progress. However, having had such good insight from others as to a dream sequence of 6/20 (see, #9 Dream Sequence Reflects Learning and following comment), I thought I'd share another dream I had just previous to that one.....

June 14, 2007 8:08am

I was in a house similar to my childhood home, but felt it wasn’t really that exact same house. I was near the front door in the area of a ‘closet’ today, but it was just a bare room with walls. Standing in this room, I could see doorway openings in the walls on my right and left. The right doorway lead to the outdoors, and the left looked into a hallway that lead to a bath area where a young child was being given a bath by an older female. I felt the child was my son and the female was related somehow.

I knew a tornado was coming, and I was standing in this closet-room that I knew had four solid walls around me, even though there were open doorways on two sides. I knew I was safe. I also knew the child and female would be safe in the bathroom where they were. The tornado arrived quickly, and I felt it was going to be a ‘direct hit’! I could feel the air spinning outside and my ears popping. (I have never experienced a tornado, so I don’t know if your ears do this with one!)

Oddly, I had a camera with me, and felt frustrated that it was a very ‘slow to work’ camera. Regardless of this fact and hoping it’d still work, I just stuck my arm holding the camera out into the hallway on my right to try to take a picture of the tornado as it passed by me. I felt disappointed when the flash didn’t go off so I would not get to record it!

After the tornado passed, the child came running to me in the closet room, shaking and crying. He was very scared so I had him sit by me where I was able to soothe him, saying ‘it’s ok, it’s over’.

I woke up, recorded the dream, and didn’t really think much about it until I realize this one is probably loaded with symbolism as well! So here it is…..

Let me know what you think…..thanks!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

9) Dream Sequence Reflects Learning

June 20, 2007 3:18am - Dream Reflects Learning

For background, the day and evening prior to this dream sequence, I had just read the section of Moen’s book (Afterlife Knowledge Guidebook) regarding Perceiver vs. Interpreter, and how we need to learn the ‘language’ of the guidance/guides that are around us.

I found it very interesting to learn how our belief systems will only allow such beliefs that are compatible with being ‘possible’, and that we need to keep an open mind to receive any and all forms of communication. In addition, memories of ‘otherwordly’ events are only saved if they are able to be associated with prior ‘stored’ memories of similar events. This ‘remembering’ of events that is done during dreams/OBE’s can become easier if we ‘go back’ to that level of consciousness in which the dream/OBE occurred.

As I recorded this short dream upon waking, I relaxed and I was able to recall more details in a ‘backward’ sort of sequence, which fit into Moen’s description of association by similar events. This dream sequence seems to fit into this new learning, but I feel also has other symbolism and meaning, I’m just not sure what! For ease of posting, I will start with my earliest memory (which was the last I recorded) and put it into proper sequence.

I was in a foreign country, something with the feel of China/Japan, in a department store of sorts. For whatever reason, I had undressed and had wrapped myself only in a blanket. (The feeling was I was about to have, or just had, a massage – which in real life, I did just have that evening before bed!)

So now I’m walking through the store, knowing I’m only wearing this blanket, yet feeling rather ‘secure’ that I’m appropriately covered up. I head out the back of the building, and starting going up a mountainous area. At the top, I know I was thinking that I must have traveled quite a long distance, and I don’t have my clothes with me.

Initially, I thought I’d have to buy all new clothes because I was too far away to go back and retrieve them, but realized that I had not left the area and could go back down the mountain to get them. I did people there that didn’t speak my language, and felt I was not going to be able to communicate with them anyway, so I headed back down the mountain.

Just as I get near the bottom of the mountain, I could see waves of water, like a tsunami, crashing over the rocks! At first, I thought I was still high enough to be safe on this mountain, but then realized, ‘oh no, I have to get higher!’ So I start climbing back up, not too concerned, but moving quickly…(my cue for awareness/OOB is usually a concern for my safety but I didn’t pick up on this at this time!)

I climb all the way back to the top, where there were people who did not speak my language, knowing I’d have to try to communicate with them. I remember trying to think HOW do you tell someone the word ‘mother’ or ‘sister’ without words?

While I’m thinking this, it’s impressed upon me that what is important is that I learn HOW to communicate with them, and not WHAT I was trying to tell them.

Just before I woke up, I remember the thought that perhaps one way I could ‘communicate’ was to draw pictures for them and that is a way I could show them what I wanted to say!

Initially, I wasn’t even going to record this dream sequence, but in hindsight, can see that even these little ‘nothing dreams’ may hold a lot of symbolism and hidden meaning!

Share with me what you think of this….

**Be sure to read the comments to this section for more insight on symbolism and dream interpretation! Thanks, Kiauma!

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

8) Validation of OBE!

I am just so excited to have received validation of my experience I wrote about here in the blog! (see #1 with following comment).

As a quick summary of that experience, during that OBE, I was introduced to an older man whom I was told was a 'graduate of the May school' (I had no idea what that was).

My quote in the blog - "In this tree house, there was an older man sitting behind a desk and the younger man was telling me all about his friend, how he was a prestigious graduate of the May's? school and other things. I spoke to the older male and said that he must be very proud, but I got the sense that he was a bit disillusioned by it all and not happy."

I can distinctly remember how the older male was not interacting and very reluctant to take part in our conversation.

I was SO surprised when a reader commented on this May school...and feel it is such a validation of this experience!

Her comment was "I don't know if you would be interested in this or not but you mentioned The May School... There is a place called The May Institute which is a school for children & adults with autism. It's strange because I don't know anyone with autism but I felt compelled to read a book titled "The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time" by: Mark Haddon. In fact I just finished reading the book about a week ago.

The author works with autistic children and wrote the book from the point of view of an autistic teenager. One of the things I noted about the character in the book is he was unable to believe in 'God' or an afterlife because his autism wouldn't allow his brain to come up with that sort of 'fantasy' so he believed that when you die you are just 'dead' and nothing else happens.

When reading that part of your post it made me think about the fact that if the souls you encountered were 'graduates' of the May Institute they might have had autism (when alive) and if they did then they might not have a belief in an afterlife because when they were alive they couldn't understand the concept of continuing on after death."

I am just so excited to receive such timely validation that I wanted to share this with everyone!

A BIG thanks to the one who left the comment....you really made my day!!!

Sunday, June 17, 2007

7) Staying in the Near-Physical Again

June 16, 2007 4:41 am

I was awake 2-4am, unable to sleep, so I left my bed and went to the living room couch.

It started off with ‘seeing through closed eyes’, looking at older brick buildings and noticing it was raining. Watching from above, I was looking at outdoor tables/chairs set up for a picnic (long end to end banquet tables, complete with place settings, old cane chairs), outside an ‘institutional’ type setting (like a state mental hospital). I’m thinking “aww, it’s all getting wet, their picnic was cancelled.”

As I start to pull back, I realize I’m OOB and I can see all the buildings of the institution. From there I start moving to other areas of the town - amusement parks, marinas with boats, different buildings, and many other places - enjoying the ability to think of someplace I wanted to see and immediately going there. I felt I was getting like a guided tour of the area.

I thought I was already ‘out’ but then I became very much aware of movement of my ‘astral’ left leg as I lay on the couch and of really strong vibrations, (this time accompanied by a loud noise). This was different to the point where I got slightly ‘concerned’, but then said, “no, just go with it because I know what this is and… oh great! I’m getting out again!”

So I just rolled out, this time again staying in the same room I was physically in. I am thrilled because I know that staying in the near-physical dimension is something I’m eager to do more of. I felt it was more of a ‘slide-out’, ending up on the floor, but then standing to see where my body was back on the couch. I was able to see the blanket covering ‘someone’, and again knew I wasn’t going to push the issue of actually seeing myself for fear of returning.

So I headed over toward the front door/bay window area, because I could remember that I told myself prior to going to sleep last night that if I should again get out in the near-physical realm, I’d like to go outside of the house and see the area. I immediately went ‘through’ the bay window (feeling that sensation, just as I wanted to do!) and outside. I floated up, noticing my glowing hands and then went high enough to feel the ‘pass through’ some tree branches near the house. Once high enough to see the house and surroundings, I said “wow, I have never saw my house from this height before!” It was such a different ‘feeling’ than my previous OOBE’s, but yet, I can’t explain why it felt different.

I then changed scenes to this room full of ‘people’, some whom I recognize as having encountered before in this life. The feeling I got was they were possibly patients I have taken care of before, having now passed on… (I am a nurse). They were smiling and happy, going about their business without a concern for me. There was ONE male that did look up to make eye contact (average height, medium build, grey/white hair with moustache/beard combo) and I felt I knew him well, so I wanted to wave ‘hi!’ The immediate feeling I got was ‘no, not yet, you don’t want to interact with them yet because you don’t want to take on anything more than what you are doing right now’. I said, ‘well, ok’ without thinking twice of it and continued on.

So realizing I need to move on and leave the room, I think, “how could I get out of here?” As soon as I thought it, I knew I had to say “to the door!” and of course, that’s where I went.

Now the door was just an arched opening, leading to a hallway/passageway – but one made of cement/smooth stone that felt ‘old’. As I floated down the hallway, I remember seeing a spider web across the hallway that I knew I’d have to pass through. Expecting to ‘feel’ the web, I was surprised when I didn’t feel any different sensations passing through it (I like to take note of the different sensations of passing through ‘solid’ objects).

Now, I’m heading ‘out’ down the hall, when I realize there is someone right behind me, just off my left shoulder. A young male presence was there and I remember saying, “I know you’re there, tell me your name, come here where I can see you!” I’m laughing, thinking this is so much fun, getting such a GREAT happy and fun feeling from him.

I hear him answer me, and I keep trying a few times to look back over my shoulder to see him. The glimpse I got was that of a good-looking young male, (30’s?), with the name “Phil” or even perhaps he was saying “just some ‘fella’”. I distinctly got the impression that it’s really not important what his name is (knowing myself, I’d probably attach too much significance to the name anyway).

Then I just faded slowly back to the physical, finding myself back on the couch, left with such a good feeling of having had SO much fun! I was smiling for the rest of the day!

Thursday, June 14, 2007

6) Three in One

Thursday 6/14/2007 6:30am

I was initially awake around 6-6:10am when my husband left for work. I knew I had to get up in 20 minutes so I am half dozing and relaxed. I must have started dreaming again of school (see Learning to Dream Walk entry), which is an ongoing recurrent theme I have had for many years.

This time, however, was different in that it was no longer high school, but college and I was attempting to ‘get to class’ once again. I felt confident I knew where to go for class and where it would be held, but I had to get to my dorm building first. The problem this time was I forgot where my dorm building was! I knew the vicinity, but not the exact spot. (These school dreams always have some element of ‘forgetting’ and ‘finding’ in them!)

I started to exit the building I was in, going to search for my dorm. I realized when I went out the door that I went out a different door than I did previously. I can remember getting my bearings and realizing that I usually exit the door on the left side of the building. This time I was leaving through the ‘main entrance’ in front.

So, because of the new exit, I knew the vicinity of the building would be up a street and to the left. I must have stopped and placed my pocketbook on the railing outside the door because once I got on the street to the dorm building, I realized I needed my keys (in my pocketbook) and that I had forgotten it somewhere! Panic set in, and I immediately recalled it had to be back at the main entrance where I stopped. I raced back, and just outside the entrance encountered a man with a number of pocketbooks hanging on display. He was trying to give me one of his (a large black one), insisting that I take it. I refused, and said “no, none of these are mine!” Looking over past him, I could see my own pocketbook still hanging on the railing where I left it. I felt such relief as I went to get it.

The scene shifted and I thought I was waking up, because I could remember that I had a meeting to get to this morning and worried that I might be late (this was true). I can remember it was dark out still (not really at this time), so I put on the light, and got up out of bed to get ready for work. I glanced out the window by the bed and noticed it was SNOWING! (It’s summer here!) I became worried that I might have some difficulty driving to work that day when I again realized I’m actually still in bed and that this was another false awakening (see my blog for last experience).

So I’m relaxed, knowing I had only a few minutes before my alarm would go off. I became aware that I could feel my left leg moving slightly, yet I knew I was not moving my physical leg. Knowing it was my ‘astral’ leg, I pulled it up high, bending it, moving it all around. I even remember trying to open my ‘physical’ eyes to see if I could look into the mirror next to the bed and see what my leg looked like! I actually was able to open my physical eyes slightly when I realized that this would fully wake me. I closed them, and concentrated on the soft, fuzzy vibrations I felt, and I knew that I was still here in the pre-OOB state.

So, I lifted the left leg up again, then tried the right leg, then left arm, and finally just said “ok, so I should be able to get out now!” I just let myself roll over to the right and could feel I was climbing out. I’m now standing at the side of the bed, thinking that if I’m out, then I must have fallen back into the deeper ‘state’ of sleep even though I know I have to get up soon!

I was wobbly at first, but then knew I had to back away from bed to get more energy and control. It was total darkness, pitch black, and using no sight, I took a few steps to bottom of the bed. I knew I had to get my vision, so I said ‘clarity now’ without results, and then repeating it, I got immediate results. My vision ‘popped’ open and I could see clearly the rest of the room and into the hallway.

I was so excited, as I don’t always get to be this close to ‘real physical’ surroundings when OOB. However, it was so short-lived because just as I could see clearly, the alarm clock goes off!

It is interesting to note that I could hear the clock next to my head, but yet could see into the hallway from my position at the bottom of the bed! I remember how strange it felt for just a few seconds before I pulled my physical eyes open. Kind of like being in two places at once! It felt very strange before fully waking up, something new I have not felt before.

This all occurred in 20 minutes, and at a time I was not expecting to do anything OOB!

My take on what this means: The school dream is very revealing to me as it indicates I am ‘working through’ some personal issues (my dorm) that deal with taking on others ‘personal’ problems (aka pocketbooks). Because I was able to refuse to take any except my own shows me I am moving in the right direction. My good friend also felt that the fact I left the building through the ‘main entrance’ and not the ‘left side’ (indicating the past) means I am moving forward. (Again, this may correlate to my being told about ‘Journey One – Getting to Know Yourself’ as mentioned in my blog).

I am glad to know that I can now become OOB without having to pre-plan my travels as I usually do. The 'astral blindness' though is so different, as I can 'feel' my eyes closed and want to open them physically, yet know I can't because I'll wake up! There is so much more of a 'real' feeling to this experience. It also seems the new increase in false awakenings may be linked with my staying close and more spontaneous OOBs. I'm assuming it has to due to the 'lighter' state of awareness that I feel.

I would love to have any insight and feedback as to what anyone may think of this.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

5) OOB Experience Reflects Life

June 12, 2007 7:32am

Just thought I'd share my latest experience and show how relective of life they can be. For a little background, this has been quite an emotional week for me, feeling very much overwhelmed with all that I have had to do and still need to do. This experience, I feel, reflects those feelings directly yet shows me that 'they' are working with me to help me get through these tumultuous times...just knowing this helps me to cope better!

It begins in my old bedroom at my mother's house where I am socializing and watching movies with friends and family. I am discussing the need for cleaning up the room and getting upset these people were not helping.

My best friend from high school was there (whom I have not seen since high school!) and was `disagreeing' with me about something. I called her 'stupid' as a response to her answer to a question and she stomped off. (I then felt hurt and upset that I said could even say something like that to her!!)

Now I'm looking all over for these guys (they left the room) because I wanted some help 'cleaning up' and to do some work. I was told they were out `playing' with Sue (- a person with whom I had bad emotional dealings with in the past). I was feeling SO upset that they left all this stuff for me to do yet they were out having fun!

They had left the movie running in the 1st bedroom and as I passed by the 2nd bedroom, I could see messes where the dogs pee'ed on floor needing to be cleaned up. As I went half way down stairs, I saw Mom in the 3rd bedroom and that's where I found out where everyone was out having fun. I was SO upset they were leaving me to do fix up everything!

Now I'm back to bed in the first bedroom, fed up, so I went to sleep. I was positioned on my left side, slightly tipped, becoming aware my eyes were closed but able to see the room in detail, seeing the upper edge of room, windows, etc. I knew that if I could see through my eyelids, I must be about to do something.

The next thing I know, I definitely feel the pressure of a hand on my right hip pushing me flat on my stomach. (It is such a real feeling that you'd swear someone was right there!) Now awake and aware, I wanted to see what would happen next.

The hand pushes me over flat, and now I can feel pressure on lower back. There were two pressure points at the base of my spike being massaged, slightly tender but felt good. She drew her hand up my back still holding the pressure. I `knew' they were working on `pressure points' with me and after a little while it eased up.

Then I realized I was still on my stomach, but now moving (levitating) on the bed off to the left side, with my arm hanging off the left side of the bed. As I'm lying there, I can see the shadow of someone next to the bed working on me, but I intentionally looked away because I felt I didn't want to know who it because I'd wake up if I did.

At some point I must have been lifted, because I next remember being placed back on the bed. I slowly became aware of my physical surroundings and then woke up.

This is not like my usual OOBE's where I 'go places', but one where I feel they 'came to me'....I don't know if anyone will get much out of this except me, but I'm very much willing to share my experiences to get some feedback.